dvtimes
04-05-09, 09:38 PM
it was somthing my mate said on sat.
my mate has mild depreshion, though you cannot tell as he takes tablets (yes i know, being mates with me you would be depresed, boom boom).
anyway he is the one that lives in the center of leeds.
i said to him shall we have a walk around town.
he said being around cheafull people does his head in.
and i thought i think thats why we get on as i too have (i suspect) bi polar, and go in strands ups and down, like today in york, one sec, realy down then next min i would think of somthing to amuse me and i would be up again. today it amused me that york was full of german and japanese tourists, and it amused me not so long ago they were bombing the place.
anyway it got me thinking.
while i see girls and think yes she is sexy/hot/pretty or whatever, i never get attracted to them.
i even considered getting of with somone and faking being in love, just to be 'normall'.
But then it struck me that mabe there is a type that i probably would be suted to and thats simply other depresive people.
i supose subconsiously i have been seeking that type by being attracted to goths. but to be honest most goths i have met are cheafull, thus defeating the object.
but having thought a=bout it, the two girls who i have sort of fallen for over the years also suffered from depreshion.
its an odd thing but i find i am most hapiest with people who are depresive. i tend not to feel the need to pretend to be cheafull for the sake of it. feel more relaxed.
but of course the problem is, where do you go to meet depresive women?
anyway i know your probably not interested, but i needed to write this down.
my mate has mild depreshion, though you cannot tell as he takes tablets (yes i know, being mates with me you would be depresed, boom boom).
anyway he is the one that lives in the center of leeds.
i said to him shall we have a walk around town.
he said being around cheafull people does his head in.
and i thought i think thats why we get on as i too have (i suspect) bi polar, and go in strands ups and down, like today in york, one sec, realy down then next min i would think of somthing to amuse me and i would be up again. today it amused me that york was full of german and japanese tourists, and it amused me not so long ago they were bombing the place.
anyway it got me thinking.
while i see girls and think yes she is sexy/hot/pretty or whatever, i never get attracted to them.
i even considered getting of with somone and faking being in love, just to be 'normall'.
But then it struck me that mabe there is a type that i probably would be suted to and thats simply other depresive people.
i supose subconsiously i have been seeking that type by being attracted to goths. but to be honest most goths i have met are cheafull, thus defeating the object.
but having thought a=bout it, the two girls who i have sort of fallen for over the years also suffered from depreshion.
its an odd thing but i find i am most hapiest with people who are depresive. i tend not to feel the need to pretend to be cheafull for the sake of it. feel more relaxed.
but of course the problem is, where do you go to meet depresive women?
anyway i know your probably not interested, but i needed to write this down.